In Him Alone

He is always with me, He never fails me,

His love is perfect,

His omniscient presence is all I need

 As I spiritually mature, these truths become beautifully clear.  The more I trust in these truths, the more He satisfies me. I have come to the realization that I am only complete when I am fully seeking the Lord and trusting Him to fulfill and satisfy me.

I have spent much of my life looking elsewhere for my comfort. I tried friends, my family and relationships but they always fell short. I was always let down.

I know now that God stripped me of all those relationships to lead me to Him.  He wanted me to know that He was the one I needed to run to, He was the one I needed to rely on and trust with my heart. After all:

He was enough when I felt lost as a child.
He was enough when I struggled through broken friendships and relationships.
He was enough when I felt alone and confused with my place in the world.
He was enough when I became a mother, sooner than I planned.
He was enough when my marriage fell apart.
He was enough when I was involved in a life changing accident.
He was enough when my finances became a mess because of my divorce.
He was enough when I was a lonely and lost mother of three.
                                                                                                             
Selfishly it was in these hard times that I would cry out to Him. Regardless, he would answer, providing me comfort and peace. He filled my lonely heart and allowed me to feel whole again. Graciously, as I began to put my full trust and faith in Him, he placed people in my life that truly encourage me and lead me in His direction. In his perfect plan, He led me to a man of God, my husband.

It is now, as a married woman in a Godly relationship that I clearly understand the valuable lessons He wanted me to know. Loving my husband is only possible because of His love for me. As amazing as my God given marriage is, my husband can never completely satisfy me the way Jesus can. He isn’t supposed to.  I cannot look to my husband for completeness, nor can he look at me to complete him.

We have been tested in our marriage; five miscarriages in two years, it hasn’t been easy. I learned that my husband could not properly comfort me in my pain. He could not piece my heart back together when it was most broken. He could not heal me. It was when I was most humbled and low and crying out to the Lord, asking and trusting in Him that I was once again made whole. I am thankful for my trials; for it is in them I feel His presence the most. He is “the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in” Him. (Psalm 62:7)

Without a doubt, He, alone, is enough and satisfies my soul. “My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from him.” Psalm 62:5
                                                                      
Regardless of your current relationship status (single, dating, married…) it is important to know that for any relationship to be successful, you must look to the Lord first. “And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thine heart, and with all they soul, and with all thy might. And these words, which I command thee this day, shall be in thine heart.” Deuteronomy 6:5-6
The butterflies and giddiness wear off, but His unconditional love never ceases. It can be difficult to pursue an intimate relationship with God, regardless of your status. When you are single, you spend so much time focusing on finding someone; when you are married much of your time is consumed by your children and/or husband. I am confident you will have the most successful relationships when God is at the center and you look to Him to provide your needs and to fully satisfy your soul.

He is always with you, He will never fail you,

His love is perfect,

His omniscient presence is all you need

“Thou knowest my down-sitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and are acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it all together. Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it. Whither shall I go from thy spirit? Or whither shall I flee from thy presence. If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there; if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. “Psalm 139:2-8

Let us rejoice in His perfect love and find comfort in Him alone!